First, I want to apologize for posting so much recently. I'm sorry for being needy. I'm just not in a good place right now.

I'm still in the hospital! When I first came in, they said I should only be staying for less than a week. That turned to two weeks. Then, my in-hospital psychiatrist goes away for about a week...and I have a temporary psych for 2 more days. So I can't ask about being let out until Wednesday.

On the OTHER hand, I never feel completely OK. I may feel fine one hour, then the next couple of hours very suicidal, then after that OK once again! I'm not sure if this is caused by my Bipolar, BPD, or both. I don't feel totally stable, although I feel better than when I first came in.

I'm just tired of all this. Part of me wants to leave and get back to school & life...and part of me wants to curl up in a ball and sleep the day away, avoiding everything and everyone. I'm scared of facing life, and potentially failing.

Sorry for the rant, I just had to let this out somehow. =/