I'm sorry about my whiny ways. Sometimes I get this "I can't stand it feeling" and I have to write stuff that's on my mind.

I feel better after writing stuff. When I e-mail that administrator, he almost never replies because most of my e-mails are not about administrative issues. I still e-mail him sometimes even when he doesn't reply. I don't know why I do it. Just like how I don't know why I keep posting on this thread even though no one is replying me.

I don't e-mail the guy all the time, usually only when I get blocked and upset. Then occasionally while I'm blocked. When Hammie died, I sent the administrator an e-mail saying that Hammie died.

I wonder if he thinks I'm completely bonkers.