Hey sweetie. People do miss you. People might not post that... But that doesn't mean that people don't miss you. It is like how you wanted to start a thread a little while back because you were worrying about the people who were blocked. You wanted to make sure that they knew that they were cared about. You cared about them even though you might not have known who they were. And you cared about them even though you hadn't posted anything in specific about being sorry they were blocked or whatever. You are missed. You have a lot of people who care about you. Even when they are quiet... That doesn't mean that they have stopped caring. But... That can be a hard thing to feel. I understand that.

> I'm not used to punishment. I was never punished as a child. To me, punishment means that the punisher hates me or wants bad things to happen to me. He said he doesn't , but it is still difficult to fathom.

Yeah, I understand that one too. If people are angry with me then I tend to think that they hate me and I find it hard to grasp that they can be angry (for a time and that shall pass) BECAUSE they care about me. Or that if I am punished for something, or if there are not so nice consequences for something I've said / done then that can actually be BECAUSE they care about me. It is hard for me. But it is getting easier in time... But it is hard.

The only way to get to know people... Is to spend time with them. It might be helpful to not read the other board. Or to just check it briefly. Maybe AFTER coming here. Because if you check that board and then come here you will probably be in a bad place over feeling excluded. If you come here first and focus your attention on making new friends over at this site then your time will pass a whole heap easier. And you will probably be in a better place for the connections here than you will be in if you go there and end up feeling excluded and not cared about.

The only way you get a history... Is to create a history. And the sooner you start... The sooner you will have one. And... There are people here who post fairly consistently to you. Sometimes the best way to establish connections is to attempt to return the favour and seek out their threads and post caring stuff to them.

Hang in there.

It will pass... And as for thinking before posting... I hope it gets easier because I have a lot to learn there too.

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