Hi, I'm new here. This is my first post. I was diagnosed with depression when I was 15, however, my anxiety began in college and has gotten progressively worse. I finally went to my doctor who prescribed Klonopin .5, which only made me teary and more depressed. The paniky feeling ceased, however I was left feeling horrible. My doctor has been gone for a week now, and I'm about to lose my mind.

I work a very stressful job, I'm a social worker. I am still going through a divorce, my second, with a 3 yr. old. The ex won't sign until it's perfect, and it hasn't been yet. I barely make ends meet being a single mom. I have a bf now, however, he's unemployed and is either unable or unwilling to find a job. That has stressed me out beyond belief.

I seem to wake up in the morning automatically on the wrong side of the bed, I wake up mean, cranky and mad at the world. It only gets worse through the day. I feel so bitter at the choices I've made, and in turn, I'm bitter towards everyone in my life.

Mental health is no stranger to me. I seem to be able to solve other's issues and give great advice, however I can't seem to do the same for myself. I've went through the whole "rebel" and do everything that other's think are bad. Now I'm snapping out of that, but snapping into the realization that I've made a terrible mess of my life and my son's life...and I blame it all on myself. GRRRRR....I hate life right now.