Had an appointment with my addictions Dr. this morning and it was good. I'm going to AZ next month to spend 4 days at a really high end resort with my brother and his wife. My brother is very generously picking up the tab, otherwise I could never afford it. I get there 2 days before them, so have a day and a half on my own before they arrive, then we have 2 days to hang out together and then i fly home. This is a huge trigger for me. It'll be my second sober vacation and the first one doesn't really count as it was tagged onto a work trip and I didn't want my boss to see me drinking. Whenever I've travelled I've always drunk alone in my hotel room at night. I really don't want to, but I kind of viewed it as inevitable given my history of relapse. But talking it through with my Dr. today I realized it wasn't inevitable, that I had a choice, and I could choose to be sober. this may sound obvious, but it was a bit of a breakthrough for me. It's still going to be hard and triggering, but I think I can do it. I'm going to look up AA and WFS meetings for when I'm there.

--splitimage