I'm so sorry you are going through this situation. I can totally relate to you and had a similar experience. You will make it through. Keep going to your counselor and pdoc and I think your counselor has some good advice, but I know in my case I wanted to hide from my friends because of my shame and low self-esteem.

I was struggling with my bad manic episdoe for a while and beating myself up and reliving it as well. I wasn't in a spot to talk to friends either. I was doing what I could do to get by. When I emerged from the fog and felt stronger my close friends understood and other friendships faded away. One friend loves and understands me and says that sometimes I go into a cave and she understands that it has nothing to do with her and that I just need that time.

You can and will make it through. Do the best job you can do. One day at a time. If you believe in God know that he does have a plan and it will work out the way it supposed to in my opinion.

My bf is in AA and he has me work on a gratitude list when I am feeling low about things. I don't know if you are in a good enough space to do that or not. Just food for thought.