Hello estoyaqui and welcome to Psych Central.

I'm so sorry to hear of your difficulties with obtaining medication for your illness and the difficulties with your spouse. It sounds like you are truly depressed and who could blame you with what you are going through.

I think there are a couple of things you may be able to do to help yourself with the medication issue and possibly your home life as well. If your city has any mental health clinics, you can go to them and ask for assistance in finding you low to no cost therapy through them and then get some help in getting your medications. They have social workers who can help you find ways of assisting you either through state programs/Medicaid/free to low cost drugs from the manufacturers. Since your husband is not forthcoming about your family income, there may be ways of getting that information without his assistance (I'm not completely sure of that, but it doesn't hurt to ask!).

We have a great member here who went to a lot of trouble to put together a thread about obtaining low to no cost medications. Here is the link to that thread. You may find it useful! http://forums.psychcentral.com/showthread.php?t=153805

I wish you the best and please keep us updated on how things are going.

Take good care!
sabby