So I asked T yet again today to answer my question about asking why chose to be a T. Nope no answer still. Said we should talk about what I feel I would gain from an answer. I said I have felt very disconnected and feel like a number sign to her and hope an answer would help me feel connected. She said let's talk about the disconnect. Said she would think about answering but wants to talk about it all first. I asked on a scale of 1 to 10 what chance do I ever have of getting an answer. Said talk about it. I said I have been told by about a dozen other people that their T has answered this question. She said in 20 years she has never been asked this.

I feel her not answering is helping me to disconnect from the attachment I had for her. So on one hand I am grateful but on the other hand I know this is not the best thing for me.

I told her that asking questions of people in the first place is very hard so asking her a question was monumental for me. I then said she is reinforcing to me why not to ask questions of people and to just speculate about what their answer may be.

I feel like I am being an unreasonable person. Maybe I am not a good client.