(((((((happycheeks)))))) What happened after you went to see the doctor?? I was so happy reading the first couple of pages of this thread because it's all such good news. I'm not sure what happened to make you feel so bad again, but it really is GREAT that you are getting help. I know there is no "magic cure" and you will continue to have some bad feelings from time to time as you work through this, but please don't lose hope!! You are doing absolutely the right thing by getting help. And it WILL help you. Just, not overnight. But you WILL get there ((((((((((happycheeks)))))))))) Many hugs to you