<font color="purple"> Thank you all so much for sending your thoughts paryers and hugs.... I just keep replaying the information over and over in my head.... I am in such a fog.... Why??? Course there are some deatils that I cannot yet reveal as they have not been released to the public yet.... BUT WHY??? doesnt matter, no reason could ever justfiy such a heneous thing. And here I am thinking I have had it bad.... Certainly puts life into perspective, everything seems so trivial now.... So I have a ferw issues and quirks, phobias, fears, anxieties and so on, I am here , I am alive, I am with my family, I had the pleasure of getting up this morning and bretahing the fresh mountain air, going to work and being able to twitch at the dribble of someone not getting their discount, being about to enjoy the company of friends, listening to my family agrue of who sitting where...... I just dont understand!!! rambling now, sorry.... </font>