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You are kind of echoing my own situation expect of course for some minor
differences which include-" I don't read (unless it's something small on the internet), do homework, study, go socialize, or do anything else that may be beneficial to myself. The only thing useful I do feel that I do with my life is go running with my roommate, but due to an injury, I haven't done that in almost a week. "
I stay cooped up in my room whole day, having no friends to go out with.
My exams are coming up next week but I just don't seem to have the desire to sit down with my books and study. I know I should study and how important it is. My parents often quote examples of people they know who wasted their time and ended up doing nothing. They set down examples of students who are so unfortunate that they can't study and here I am, who has all the resources but is not utilizing them. That gives me a push, but all the energy and enthusiasm just fizzles out after sometime. I end up watching movies, listening to songs, or simply lying on my bed whole day just like you. I waste my time like hell. I do realize that, but I am unable to do anything about it.
Anything that I 'need' to do, I don't feel like doing it at all.
Ya, people often think it to be depression, however somehow I don't think that is what the problem is.
I think the first thing you ought to do is stop being bothered about the fact that you are not bothered enough. Relax and take things a little casually. The more you think about why you are not taking things seriously, you will only end up getting entangled in that web of thought and the whole thing will become such a mess that you won't be able to come out of it at all. You have hell a lot of loan, well stop thinking about it. Just drive the thought of loan out of your mind. Completely clear your mind. Next thing you should do is find yourself a friend who is extremely positive in his/her way of thinking and with whom you can do group study, who will actually be very supportive and not just give you pieces of advice on how to be disciplined and all that. Neither are you lazy, nor do you lack motivation. You are somewhere in the in-between. I cannot exactly describe that out to you, but I know that that is where I am too. I had found this really amazing friend to study with and man didn’t I study like hell in those times. I actually enjoyed studying those days and did not worry about my grades. Unfortunately she is not here now, so my source of motivation is gone and I am once again in the in-between. Study only for the love of it. Everything has a routine in today's times, so you chalk out a method by which you won't feel that you 'need' to do the work and do your work as per your convenience and at the same time you will be in sync with the routines.
I'll give you an example for clarity-
I have to study physics for my upcoming exams but whenever I sit down with my books I am reminded of the exam and I loose all my concentration and end up doing something else. So I have found out a different method to solve my problem. I have downloaded the undergraduate physics lectures of Walter Lewin from open courseware site of MIT and I imagine that what I am going to learn now is only for the love of learning. And believe me it has worked wonders for me. Also the fact that Walter Lewin is such an amazing teacher has simply added on more brownie points.
Be a little creative in your approach instead of brooding.
I don't know if this will be of any help to you, but if you need any further help just let me know. And if you could tell me what you are studying maybe I could suggest ways by which you could make it creative so that you won't feel that you 'have' to study it.
Oh another thing, have a positive outlook. It will help a lot.
Hope I did not tire you with such a big reply...
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