First of all, I'm sorry to hear about all you've been through. I've lost a lot of loved ones, human and animal, over the past two years and I know that pain well. ((((((justsignmeupalready)))))))

I agree with the others about doing something soothing and relaxing. What relaxes you? Listening to music? Reading? Maybe watching a movie that makes you laugh? You've had a rough day and you need to take care of yourself now.