ES,

I'm not bipolar but I know others who are and still others that appear to be although they are undiagnosed. Most I know feel the same as you about not being able to control their emotions. All I can say is the fact that you try hard to "stay calm and apologize" shows you care about the people/person you're dealing with and in any close relationship showing you care kind of overrides a lot of the less than ideal moments.

As far as marriage goes plenty of them fail without either partner being bipolar so don't throw in the towel on it before it happens. On the children side you never know until you have them - they tend to change the way you look at the world - I think for the better.

Sorry for my less than definitive answer.....