Ya know, I was just talking about this whole "time" thing with my T. We were talking about one of my compulsive activities, and I was expressing how frustrating it's been for me to try and get help. Previous T's always asked me how much time I spent on the activity, and I'd give a guess, but I really had no clue. My current T nodded her head and told me that it's because I'm dissociating when I engage in the activity! Finally, someone gets it! She's exactly correct...I do dissociate when I'm engaged in the compulsive activity. I lose chunks of time. It's not like I know I'm losing time and want to stop so I can go do something else...I really have no clue how much time is passing. Usually, something happens to snap me out of the compulsive activity, and I'm often shocked at how much time has passed. Then I get angry at myself for losing so much time that I could have spent doing something else...but in the moment, I'm not aware of time passing.

I am also a really bad judge of time. I'm rarely late for things, because I make sure to give myself double the amount of time I think I'm going to need to get somewhere, or I will use google maps to figure out how long it should take me to get somewhere. But, if someone just asks me how long it takes me to go somewhere or how long a task will take, or something, I have no concept of an accurate estimation of time. One of my friends always asks me when I give her a time frame "is that in "Rhi time" or everyone else's time." She then doubles whatever estimate I've given her, knowing that's closer to how long something will really take.