I agree with Byz, Rose...there might be a way for your psychiatrist to intervene without going inpatient.

That being said...I was hospitalized four times about 20 years ago, so I'm not sure my experiences are relevant. But I did work in a psych hospital for four years very recently, and I can tell you that almost all the doctors sincerely wanted the best for their patients. The nurses were the same, with the exception of a few jaded ones.

I feel confident that you are articulate enough and willing enough to work hard at being well. You will make it the best possible experience, whatever the circumstances of your admission.