Mystry,

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What does it matter?...When? Why? How much?...

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Well, it mattered to me--- as I was feeling very much alone, which only makes me even more depressed.

All my life I've been surrounded by people that have brought much attention to themselves-- demanding support, affection and compliments. Feeling very different-- I am silent and then, when I'm really depressed, people in my life think things are going just fine for me....... since they speak up when they need support and I'm not voicing--- I must be OK.

But that's where such people are wrong when it comes to me..... when I'm very quiet that's when I'm in that huge black pit where I sometimes feel as though I will be swallowed up

So it does matter to me........ it made me feel better to know that I'm not alone in isolating when I'm very down. And I am thankful to hear all other views.

Just because I don't request attention doesn't mean I'm doing well and I'm not struggling. I guess those that voice their feelings when in need of support wouldn't understand the predicament I get in......... wanting support but feeling bad asking for it--- so I don't ask and then I feel bad because no one knows how much I can be hurting.--- (if that made any sense--- I struggle even to explain it )

mandy