Thanks Myzen.... and I agree it is the illness that is getting to me and not the situation its self and yet the bad feelings just seem to come upon me (and quickly) rather I want them to intrude or not.... I can recognize the phobia / anxiety for what it is, but I cannot stop the despair that follows the reaction of seeing & feeling.

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

P.S.
Thanks.... Estee - YOU are so SWEEEEEET.