am i too depressed to know anything other than suicidal ideation? why does that and depression seem synonomous to me? how am i supposed to let you know how i am without telling you what i think? where are your clouds that you don't know what i want to say? what kind of place says post here for depression and then limit you to what you can say? how can i say anything if i limit my own words? like: like is so horrible i can't care enough to live... um so you know what i am thinnking about and why i want to do you know what. and how this all feels like you know what else and how the whole world can go you know where because i feel so you know so whatevering what. and just why am i even bothering with this when no what even you know whating cares

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