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Gosh, those hugs feel good! Thanks, you guys! It's not that Jerry is such spendthrift although he can be a compulsive buyer sometimes. Both of us live on a fixed income and this was his short paycheck. Yeah, he's immature. I just refuse to take the same place I had before we separated. He has HIS money and I have MINE, although it's difficult to not borrow from each other. But as soon as I catch myself up, I AM NOT gonna combine incomes any more!! I can't stand the stress. Hey! If he runs out of money, too bad! Same goes for me. Thank God he's not in debt any more than the limit on his Visa Card! LOL It's not thousands, believe me!

LOL Anna, I know how you feel. They toys are harder to let go than the person, sometimes. What does that tell you about the choices we make!? I'll bet that boyfriend of yours is still living off some woman. Jeez!!!

Lady D, I know my meds aren't working to capacity, either. I've suspected I need an increase for some time now, but my shrink works in the next town over and "thoughtful" me doesn't want to ask "his nibs" to drive me that far, would you believe?? Maybe I need a swift kick in the butt, eh?

BP, you got it right on the nose! It's the stupid bureocracies that have me all stressed out!! I can't believe the incompetence that runs rampant in this world!! If I wind back in the hospital because of this, wonder if I could sue them for twice what they owe me? It's not much, really. Not in view of the multi-million dollar law suits that go on now-a-days! I'm not greedy. I just want what's owed to me and I want it NOW!!

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Greg}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} You're such a wonderful guy!! I know you would come all the way down here if I asked you. It's not necessary, Sweetheart, really. That's not to say I wouldn't mind meeting you in person, though! Wow! I'd be so lucky!! You don't know how much I appreciate your offer and don't think I'm not tempted to take it, but Jerry isn't a butt all the time and I have an older son that's supposed to be handling that money for me... if I ever get it!!! He knows what's going on and he's stressing, too. His writing style is very much like mine and he carries through, too, so what does that tell ya, eh? I emailed him a few minutes ago, gave him the name and business address of the worker's supervisor and asked him to write a letter in hopes that the letter will make a bigger impact that a phone call, but I'm thinking I'm going to call tomorrow, anyway. I'm feeling a bit better now that I've slept all day. Sheeesh! I hate it when the depression gets that bad!! It won't control me tomorrow!

As for telling hubby this is about ME... I've lost hope. Everything is about HIM! AAAHHHH!!!! Hun, he's 13 emotionally! How do you tell a teenager that it's not about him?? Talk about the choices we've made, eh? Ah well... I'm on the downside now. Better to have him around than living alone. Been there, done that. I'd rather have him around. Don't ask me why because I probably couldn't tell you, but I love the guy. Go figure!

You guys are great! I feel so much better now. Except that I don't want to fix dinner... UGH!


<font color=blue>"The winds of change continue rolling and they just carry me away."</font color=blue>