I'm glad you posted this, and your able to admitt what part you take in your problems. That's really cool....acepting....a healing mechanism.

Anyway, it's hard to admitt, because I fear it will make the impression on who I am now. But discussing these things is healthy. Plus it's reality. I used to be this person, but I am now completely different.

When I was 14, I was very out of control, did drugs, had sex, stole, lied, I did anything to get what I wanted. I was very angry and disrespected everybody. I was mean and cruel to the people who were trying to help me, like my Grandma for example. It's memories I wish i could go back and change, yet I accept that that was then, and this is now.

I take responsibility for acting like a mean girl. But I do feel my anger originated from my mom abondening my sister and I. That and all the abuse and neglect we endured afterward. I blamed her for hurting for years. I know realize I could have made the best of my situation, and tried harder to be better than her. Instead I became her.

Anyway, that's my bad traits that I take responsibility for.
Thanks for posting this question.
Desirae