I should have mentioned that the roleplay aspect wasn't the entirety of our relationship. It was how we met, and it turned into how we got intimate with each other, but I wasn't falling in love with characters.

She asked me to start an online relationship with her, and we both understood that we were romancing each other, not each other's characters. If this was anything less than an expressed relationship I wouldn't have such a big problem.

I thank you guys for your help, you're making a lot of sense. I don't want to just move on though, because we've been doing this for about half a year now and we got really really close and did a lot of things together... even if it was just chatting online, I've fallen in love with her!

I'm a shy, anxious person. I always have been. I wouldn't say I was afraid of being social, I just don't know how to do it well. I stick to my circle of friends and I don't get close to many other people. My main phobia now is infidelity. I never knew I had this phobia until I started this relationship, but I'd definitely call it a phobia now. I obsess about it, and it obviously went too far this time. At first she said it was cute, but it's obviously gone too far now. She said I need to grow up and stop putting so much emotional significance on what she does, but right now it's all we have. If we had a physical relationship I could maybe see what she was saying, but right now that's the only way we can be intimate and it hurts me that she'd rather do it with other people. Part of being in a relationship is feeling special to someone, right? It doesn't make me feel special if she's going off with other people.

I don't know if how I'm feeling is normal, or if I'm actually an overbearing and overly jealous boyfriend. Like I said, I'm new to this. Sorry if I'm ranting, but I haven't been able to talk to anyone about this before and I'm getting a lot of things off my chest.