He was fired from his job bc he failed his drug test for meth. He said he's never done drugs and that it was a false positive bc with meth it uses over the counter medication to produce, I searched on it and it is true.. He said he was taking cold medication a few days before the test. Sense he's lost his job I have a gut feeling that things are not going right and he's not telling me the whole truth anymore. At the time I didn't know what or who to believe. I love the guy and I wouldnt ever want to imagine that he's not doing drugs. When he had to return me $520 he gave me $490 instead and was making sure that I would believe him that it was $490 but I refuse and knew it was $520. He tried to take my money but I wasn't going to let him get away with it. He had a $100 on Friday and by Sunday he was broke. He said he used all that money on me but never once did I see a gift. I told him I want stability instead I dont care for flowers and gifts. Just the other day I found two small drug bags the size of a half dollar and a quarter in his room. The two bads had tiny faces of the devil. The two tiny bads were in a shopping bag. I asked him why is it in his room. He said he doesn't know where it came from and that he brought it in from his car. He doesn't know how it got into his car. He said that I just have to believe him because he doesn't do drugs. As much as I want to take his words and believe him, how am I suppose to avoid and ignore these hard evidence. The bags that the holds the drugs, the failed drug test and then how he's been handling his money is so suspicious.

I dont know how to walk away from him when I know I need support right now. I'm in the middle of leaving from one abusive home from my parents place and now into renting a room from strangers. In my circumstances I think I'll have to leave it all behind and go forward on my own. This is so difficult.