thanks to everyone for responding. i know i need to speak with pdoc about my fears and concerns, but it was really important to me to know how this therapy affected other people. i think the aspect of it that i've been most fearful of is the possibility of remembering something i don't want to remember. i'm not sure if thats even possible, especially after so much time has passed. my appt is tomorrow and i will certainly share any new info i learn. its been so many years and so much pain, i'm willing to give anything a try. again, thank you. i've been panicky all day and reading all the positive things made me feel better. i don't know if i'm ready for it yet, but i know that when i am it is a safe thing to do.