trigger warning for mention of SA...

I don't know what's going on with my T, but I talked to her very briefly last night and she said she had had a very long, very hard day. Her voice cracked as she said it. She said she is taking some time to take care of herself.

Which is good modeling for me, everyone needs to do that sometimes, right? I called her today, because she had asked me to, and told her I was just calling to see if she was still there. She sounded much more like her usual self, and we talked for a few minutes.

Fast forward to tonight, when I picked up my health book to read the chapter and do the writing assignment due tomorrow. Turns out the chapter is about rape. I can't even...I can't read it. I can't breathe. I can't feel my legs. There is no way in he11 that I can write about it. I need T and yet I will feel like a heel if I call her tonight. I have to get through this. I guess I'm going to take a zero on this assignment. I don't know what T would say if I talked to her about this right now but all I can figure to do is just nothing. Just skip it.

So sad and triggered in the worst way.