Suicidal thoughts have been coming into my head recently. Not accompanied by intent, just ... popping up out of the blue. More like ... brooding over the topic in general. I don't want to say more for fear of triggering anyone. I just needed to get it out somewhere because it's been really scaring me lately. I will try to tell the pdoc when I see him but I hate bringing it up. I've always hated bringing it up, more than any other part of my depression, even though I know how important it is. I don't even like bringing it up here. It's really uncomfortable to talk about at all.

Appointment's not for another week. I'm totally safe, but if you guys could spare me some hugs to get me through 'til then I'd really appreciate it.