Usually, if WE think we have a problem with an addiction, we do. We are not stupid people. We always know, whether or not we choose to be honest about it to ourselves is another story. No one wants to face addiction. It's a terrible disease, the only disease known to mankind which tries to convince us we do not have. It's worth looking into some help for. Attend an N.A. meeting. Ask questions, try NOT taking the pills. If you find you cannot go any length of time without an obsessive thought coming in about the pills, you probably have an addiction. Anyway, keep n keepin on, let us know what you find.
To Thine Own Self Be True