had to respond to your post because you cant give up. the question, what more can i do? keep trying. for the people who love you and for the people you love. for the fact that there are, rare as they may be, beautiful days worth living for. after twenty years in and out of therapy, i'm still searching for an answer. and after all these years i'm still trying new things because i'm still alive. i think we're lucky to be here, to have survived so much, and we can't just give up. realize that in that list that you made, of all the things you've endured, you showed that you're strong enough to keep trying. don't give up now. you never know when the answer is right around the corner.