Thanks Byzantine. I did talk a little about inpatient options but I just don't think a week or two stabilization place is going to do anything for me and I can't afford to stop working long enough to go anywhere else. I just don't understand why when I know the answers (coping skills, etc..) I can't apply them. Why when people have done everything for me there is to do- when ultamitely it's up to me and I screw it up.