I know graphic design can wait if it has to but I'm not getting any younger and the longer I put it off the more I'll suffer for it. My student loans are on forbearance only until December and I need more money than my part time minimum wage Macy's job to make it out of my credit card debts and loans. Because I'm socially phobic I don't feel comfortable in some work environments, I like Macy's because it's sorta classy retail and I don't have to be around stereotypical male bs. I hate that tough guy bs. People should be human beings with emotions etc.

I mentioned earlier I worry people will think I'm a nerd or something. I like the Harry Potter flicks for example. Now I also mentioned everybody who knows me doesn't think I'm a nerd and that adults don't believe such stereotypes. So my sister said she and her husband tried to buy the new Harry Potter movie at Target. They had zero copies in stock. She said, "See? Why do you feel like a loser? Everybody likes Harry Potter. We couldn't find it anywhere the day the movie came out! Why do you think there's something wrong with you?"