I am generally a quiet person. I used to be super shy as a teenager so I missed out a lot on life and the social happenings of the time. I didn't see a psychiatrist until I was 40 and I really wish that I had dealt with my shyness and being an introvert before then. I was really sensitive and am on meds that have helped me tremendously. I don't feel shy around people any more. My greatest fear was being laughed at and rejected and I used to feel that if someone liked me that maybe there was something wrong with them??? Really strange. I still battle with rejection and wonder, after I've made a friend or when I start a relationship, "when is it going to end?" "when they find out the real me, will they leave?" Small wonder that I am still alone.......
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