Problem is I live in a small town and the only mental health place here (both for inpatient and intensive out patient) I work at. So I'd have to go out of town somewhere which means losing work and I'm a single mom. Ugh! I feel so trapped!! Help is literally elusive. And I'm not sure it would do any good anyway you know? Like I said before I've got to do something about me. I'm just not sure where to start. Thank you for your replies. It's good to just have people listen sometimes. I'm very isolative (is that a word?) and don't talk much to people.