Since the begining of my relationship with the boy (or man... that's debatable) it has always been me to make all the effort.

At first, i will admit, we were almost in each others pockets, and he was always wanting to see me. We'd either meet on a night out, or i'd go to his place and stay over.

Because he has to get up ridiculously early for work, i got my own key and i thought things were absolutely perfect.

Over New Year we had a little bit of a falling out, which he took blame for and apparently it came down to things getting serious between us and him scared of commitment.

It was then i took the overdose, with everything else going on in my life i couldn't hack having a boyfriend who didn't know if he wanted a relationship with me or not, and kept comparing me to his two major past relationships which from each came a son.

His first he lived with and was still living with after the birth of the boy, until she decided to leave. He's been seeing his son regularly ever since. The other he did not want at all and was born to his childhood sweetheart, i was told they only got back to seeing each other because he felt safe because of their past as teenagers, but he did not want another child, and after this the girl refused access to the child, and he has no relationship with him at all.

I am neither of these people and it annoys me greatly that he thinks i could be anything like them.

I was also getting increasingly annoyed that he stopped wanting to see me so much and it would always be me asking to see him, and he'd have reasons not to. He hasn't returned my key- and says that he lost it.

So i suggested we do things out of the house together- as i imagine most people in normal relationships do. We both have dogs but he won't go for walks. I understand he has responsibilities with his son, and i suggested we take him swimming together. He said that we could do, but it doesn't look likely.

I will be homeless soon and my mum suggested we invite him over for dinner as it will be the last chance he'll have of getting to know my parents. He's spoken to my mother plenty of times whilst i was in the hospital and when i was in the psychiatric hospital so i don't see why he should be shy of her. My step father is his age, and i also don't think thats a reason not to come for dinner.

When i asked him why he never came to see me at my place, he said he was never invited, and thats why my mum suggested dinner. At first he made excuses that he was working late, and so i gave him the oppurtunity to tell me if he just didn't want to come. He replied that it isn't his thing.

Why can't he make a simple sacrifice of joining me for dinner with my family? I've invited him over for dinner before when my parents weren't there, and it went so well.

I just don't know what to do, i feel like he doesn't fancy me anymore, and we hardly go a few days without me getting upset about him not wanting to see him. To him i imagine that i'm just some company to come over to his and go to bed with a few nights a week- sometimes less.

Should i just finish it?

I've too much to deal with already and i need support right now, with having to apply for council housing and getting help with my depression. It's awfully hard knowing that he isn't bothered whether he sees me from one day to the next.

I can't really explain this, i'm scared he'll just tell me to go away and forget it. And i have tried that before, giving him an ultimatum and he responded by saying that he can't just forget me and couldn't we just carry on seeing each other and go with the flow.

There isn't a flow anymore, it's me on my own waiting for him to want me.