ROFL - you sound just like my MIND SignMeup....

Oh how many times I have said those exact things to my self.... but then I remember that I do love him and that he is trying, not to mention that we both have unresolved wounds that are subconsciously controlling us from with in - rather we realize it or not.
AND - then the BIG ONE.... I am so badly wounded and living in a h*ll house of anxiety / phobia right now that I cannot even consider the notion of coming out and getting a life.... for until I can get better inside LIFE would just KILL ME!! - or at least that is how it feels from my side of the world.

Boo Hoo -

BTW - he is 40 and I am 38.... he is trying to recover from a sexual addiction and I am trying to heal from my past wounds to the point that I may trust, love and live again.... all while trying to avoid any further upsets.

LoVe,
Rhapsody -