i am finally starting to accept that i have been a difficult person, and still am. i will admit that i've blamed many failed relationships on other people, on the fact that they couldn't accept me the way i am. i know now that there are things i have control over, that i can change, and if i care enough i should make the effort.
my rough edges. . . i am so afraid of being hurt, of caring about someone more than they care about me, of falling or being in love, that i sabotage things. i become cold and distant, and eventually find myself alone again. i am quick to feel anger and resentment, and i don't trust people even after they've proved themselves trustworthy. no doubt theres more, but those are the first things that come to mind.