Thank you all for the support, advice, links, and numbers. We broke up for two days. We got into a huge blow-out at his brothers house and he threw me against the wall and started kicking me repeatedly. His brother finally got him off of me and told me he'd hold him there long enough to get out of there. I went to the hospital. No broke bones or anything but my ribs are bruised and he hurt my kidneys. During those two days apart, I felt as if my world had come to an end. I went out and did some things I shouldn't have done (drugs and cutting) and did everything in my power to try and OD and hope I wouldnt wake up the next morning. I should be dead. Took 3 Extacy pills, smoked A LOT of dope, took a lot of pain pills and nerve pills, and drank them all down with liquor. All I could feel was numbness those two days. I didn't smile, I didn't eat, I didn't sleep, all I could do was get high and sit there. So I went back. We've been back together two days now and so far things are going alright. We've finally had a serious talk about what we want changed in the relationship and what we need to work on as individuals. I love this man with all my heart and soul and would move the ocean for him if I could. He's my world, my everything. Without him, there is no me. He's still calling me names some but not near as much and he hasn't put his hands back on me. I'm hoping it stays that way... I never want to be in the state I was in the other day again. I feel like such a fool.