Oh LMo ((((( LMo ))))) I'm ok, please don't worry. Things are just so very difficult for me right now. I don't have internet access unless I come to my moms and my boyfriend doesn't let me do that very often.

I'm embarassed and sad to say that I relapsed. Justin and me broke up for two days and because I didn't want to feel the pain, I did what I knew what at least somewhat make the pain mild. Did a lot of dope, took Extacy, pain pills, nerve pills, drank, smoked pot. For two days straight, that's all I did. Didn't sleep, didn't eat, just stayed high. We're back together now and although I know this isn't a good relationship for me and I know I'm putting myself in a dangerous situation by being with him, that's the only time I feel even half way complete. So I stay.

I'll be ok... I may not be able to get on here everyday but I think about you guys daily and do miss y'all and hope all is working out well with each of you. I'll check in as much as possible. Please, keep me in your thoughts and/or prayers. They are greatly needed.