5 years ago i went through a breakup with my ex husband..we were together for 18 years(since age 15)...within 6 weeks i slept with 13 men,,looking to be loved.. number 13 was the man i ended up in a relationship for 4 1/2 years..(very abusive relationship and now suffer from ptsd)...anyway,i left and have been single for almost 6 months..i have had sex with 7 men,mostly within the past 2 months..even slept with 2 different men 3 days apart..sometimes i will sleep with someone i have never met b4 and have a one night stand,,those are the easiest and the most enjoyable..i have also slept with a couple of friends,,which turned out to ruin the friendship because they want a relationship and i dont...i am not looking for a boyfriend..i need to heal from my last relationship...i definately have a big wall around my heart and cannot let it down right now...so this time im not looking for love...my question is..is there something wrong with me? is it ok to have casual sex? sex definately complicates things but i continue to want it..another thing is that i am EXTREMELY embarrassed and disgusted with my body,so how can i still end up having sex with people? idk..i confuse myself..i havent had sex in 3 weeks and its really bothering me..am i just "horny" (for lack of a better word)..