I am still new to this forum and haven't been back since I first signed up a few months back. Things were looking up, as I had made my way into a Pharmacy Tech class and things there were good. I was acing my first four tests and making my way through a difficult class. Then it started.... I failed my fifth test and it hit me like it always does when things hiccup on me. My mind started telling me I was stupid and pointless and couldn't survive in this class. I passed my next test with a 95 as I fought my way through the muck and mire of my mental torture. Test 7 came back with a 60 another failure. I buckled down and studied HARD for test #8 and failed again. This test I thought I knew inside out. It tore me up inside and now I am facing a failing grade with no motivation to try. I gave up inside as I always do.

No matter how hard I try I fail. I have one test on the 25th and then the final the monday after and If I don't ace both of them I fail the class. But I can't even open the book right now. Self fulfilling prophecy, I know, but it doesn't change things.