I'm infatuated with an administrator of another online support forum. I think about him a lot sometimes. Sometimes I think he hates me and wants bad things to happen to me and then I get really upset.

He doesn't chat with me. He never replies to my non admin related e-mails and questions. I post about him a lot sometimes.

Recently I got really upset because I thought he hated me and wanted me dead. I sent him many e-mails (very impulsively) with threats against my life. It was horrible.

He then sent me a message saying that he didn't hate me and didn't want bad things to happen to me. He has to send this message to everyone else too now or else he would be giving me special attention. He's really careful about that.

Anyways, now I feel the opposite. I'm back to loving him again. All is well with the world again. I kind of really lost it when I thought he wanted bad things to happen to me.

Anyways, I'm going to meet this administrator in real life in May in Toronto for a get together party. There will be other posters there too. Do you think he will be afraid of me?