For the past three years I have been able to call me t when I need him, after hours on a coaching line. I use it for coaching and for reassurance from him. I typically call once a week. But now everything is changing. The agency my t works for is in a pilot program for DBT and since they are getting accreditted in our state they have certain criteria they have to meet. So now they are offering phone coaching to everyone in DBT regardless of there personal t's. The phone will be traded between five therapist and so my t will only have it every 5th week.

I used to feel so secure having that number to get a hold of him in times of crisis. I am so devastated this is such a big change for me. I broke out in a head to toe stress rash last week over this and had to go to the dermatologist for meds. I feel like everyone else in DBT is getting a huge benefit and I am losing out on something very special. I cry a lot over this and my t tries to reassure me that he still cares about me. It is hard to believe anymore. It has been this way for three years and now poof...huge change. There is nothing I can do to change this. I have begged and pleaded and cried. I have been very angry, I have threatened to quit. He won't budge on this. I can not believe this is happening, this is a nightmare.......