I saw my psychiatrist today...she said I was getting better again...and that I looked better...

Weird....because I don't feel better. Well, I do, but not "normal".

A lot of my symptoms have gone away...as soon as I leave this area, which I hate (to see psychiatrist), my mood lifts. She is about 10 min from my hometown in a very populated area. I feel so much better with people around....

I then went to see an old friend who I lived with for a year (also 10 min from hometown)...It was so nice.

The minute we got back on the highway to come here I was thinking ugh. Yuck. No. I live on a highway. I can't change it. No friends.

The minute I am back in familiar territory I start feeling like I want my life back. I am so confused. I was thinking jobs. Corporate. I want to go back to school. Anything. There is so much to do back there, so much to fill a day with...

And then I come "home"...Cows. It's probably all PTSD stuff and I am coming out of it. I don't know. I just feel like the whole world opens up when I go back to where I am used to.

There is no easy "transition"...I have to just get a job and leave, do everything, new roommates...it's overwhelming.