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Originally Posted by beautifuldisaster78
So I went in today, and although am less in the "fog", I left feeling like I wonder if I actually attempted suicide, I'd get some help. and.. since I haven't been eating due to depression/anxiety I thought maybe when i become skinny and sick...then someone will help.
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This really resonates with me Beautifuldisaster. I've lost count of how many times I think something like this hoping that someone, anyone, will notice me and somehow make my life a little easier...
And I, like you, know that it has to come from within.
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Originally Posted by beautifuldisaster78
I don't think I can save me. So know what do I do.
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And I also worry about this too. Though atm I couldn't care less about saving myself. I'm sorry that I don't have any real help or suggestions for you. The only thing I can think of is to tell your T exactly what you've posted here. I've told my (old) T so many things that I thought would horrify her and make her stop seeing me or caring about me, and she never ever did (My T was awesome
). I'm sure your T will be the same. In fact I think this need to be saved/rescued is something that Ts commonly see, so it doesn't make you a bad person or anything
All the best,
*Willow*