Thanks for all the support everyone. I feel like turning away from t right now in a big way but I am trying to tell myself to let him support me during this change. It would probably go better if I did, it's just that I feel so abandoned. I have a scheduled phone call this Monday to check in and keep the "connection." I am not sure if the change is going to happen this Thurday or in two weeks. I almost just wish it would be done and over with right now because not knowing exactly when this will happen is really stressful. It is like when is this going to be taken away for good? In 5 days or in 12 days?

I think that I will call him for reassurance...kind of like my last meal.