I personally think you do care because otherwise you would not see a problem with what you are doing and you would not have posted about it so I hope you do find that therapist and take care of it. Take care.

Addition to post -
If you posted not because you care and want to take care of the problem which is one of two reasons in my opinion why people post such problems on mental health websites then I have no choice but to believe the second reason posters post such information and that is you posted this just for an attention getter and maybe your alloofness of not caring is because it is not a real situation.

right now I am choosing to believe you care and are for real and want to take care of the situation. Which means you need the help of real world professionals all we can do here is make suggestions. again take care.