I have a very demanding job and usually only get online at night but I had to go to the dentist today. Yuck. I can understand your feelings when I get very depressed it is hard to do anything. I hope you find something here that will help relieve some of your distress. I do search for support, understanding and hopefully provide support to others here. I hope you find your peace as I am still trying to achieve that myself. PM me if you ever want an understanding ear.