so..... if you have feelings of love in regards to "loving this person as a close bond that will hurt when T is over" is that a negative thing?

What about just a few....um...."thoughts of erotic images while sitting across from my T in therapy?" Is that a negative?

On the other hand, I feel this is a growing experience for me.... I wanna know why it was so easy to feel this for him and no one else... so I am kinda stuck in whether this is Neg. or Pos. any thoughts?