It makes me sad that you have returned to a relationship that he still is being disrespectful to you. No one deserves that. Do you honestly feel that he will change and you will be safe emotionally and physically where you are? I hope so if you decide to stay. I understand how scary it can be to make a major change such as you would be looking at but please do not think that there are not alternatives. I worry about your safety but will respect whatever your decision is. I am not trying to persuade you one way or another, as this is ultimately your decision, but do want you to realize you have options. If you want someone to talk to please feel free to PM me. Please, please be safe.