Thanks all for your kind words. I have been off site for the past couple of days. Trying to be happy and look happy. I have found myself looking at some not so healthy sites on the web. Those pro self harm sites and such. This is a big trigger for me and a huge sign of a impending depression. Plus I want to do the drink till you pass out thing. Maybe I just want my T's attention. Maybe. I see her Tuesday, so I hope I make it till then. I hope T shows up and doesn't forget me again.

I'm sad and tired and I want to check out for a while. Just not feel or think. I guess I should tell my T. But what if it is just to get attention. What if she doesn't care or doesn't take me seriously? What if I really am getting depressed. Should I talk about it in T or just let it slide? I could wait a little longer to see if this stuff runs it's course and fades away on it's own. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.