ok some days i think i should just get admitted and make everyone happy. THE PSYChO is put away locked in a padded cell with a strait jacket on. (no offense) i cant afford hospitalization. i can barley afford to fart. But she use to cut and she over reacts. i have only needed stitches once. other than that my cuts are not that deep. may bleed for a while but not deep at all. I just wish she would leave this subject alone. she criticize making me feel dumb over every thing. bipolar she tells me U DONT GOT BIPOLAR BIPOLAR IS DA DA DA DA DA DA u dont know how lucky u are to have bla bla bla mother bla bla bla and u all know my mom is a *****. IF U CUT I WILL TELL< (EVERY BODY FUC*en KNOWS). I know she cares but does she need to criticise every feeling i have. i feel like my feelings are false. None of my feelings are true to her. there made up. I guess they are. i mean if she says they are fake then they must be. sTUPid ME. why not end it just so at my funeral she can say i told her thatthis will ahppen. make her happy. im not thinking about suicide but my feelings are strong. i dont belong anywhere. i barley belong here. She makes my feelings inadequate. like compared to her life mine looks like a peice of cake. Well my life wasnt a peice of cake she does not kow that i was sexually assaulted, beaten, and been kicked out too.

im still pist.. i want to cut more justslash away. slash away all my skin. slash slash slash