Susan,

You are so sweet to apologize to anyone that might have gotten upset...... speaking for myself--- I was not upset at all.

Being the youngest of a large family, all my siblings trying to out yell each other and be the worst behaved to get some kind of attention from our parents...... I learned very early (by about 3) that I couldn't compete. How can a 4 year old get into so much trouble that she gets the attention rather than a 15 year old brother who's into drugs, or a pregnant 16 year old sister-- the 4 year old doesn't stand a chance!! I s'pose feeling invisible.... I withdrew into myself-- and truly became invisible.

Being around a family that so loudly voices their discomforts.... then, I married into a family very similar--I've been treated like I don't have problems since I'm not yelling or saying " Hey look at me, I'm upset". Your post just got me wondering...... "maybe I am very different from most people".

Reaching out to others here, I wanted to learn how they react when feeling as though they are disintegrating. I wanted to know if the way I isolate when VERY upset was extremely unusual.

And maybe I also wanted to be heard...... that---- the fact I don't post a lot doesn't mean I'm breezing through life. Not because of your post though..... I wrote because of my past and present 3-D life.

Thanks for your reply-- that was a very kind of you. I wish you healing and inner peace.

mandy